Putting Holes In Happiness

Wells he an update on my life

My new fish died last night, I am very unimpressed by it, I was sad but it getting use to it, some times I think it’s the gods or something are punishing me for something I did. Except I have no idea what…. Maybe I do?.. Lets just not get into it.
On another note I went to the chiropractor for the first time, it was interesting, kind of weird.. I don’t know if I trust those people, I think that they just want my money, and that they are going to fix me half way to the point in where I have to keep on going back.. Just like cigarettes.

Once again I’m broke, the expense of my now dead fish has put me in the poor house, just another thing I’m use to. But now I can’t go out with a friend from work that I was looking forward to because I haven’t been out since the last time we went out. And that was a long time ago!
Life in this city is getting very weary. The more I live in it the more I feel like doing anything to leave it.
These streets remind me of quicksand

all but one

Yesterday all but one of my many fish died. Some of them were 4 years old. Today im returning my only living fish because I want him to have a better home, wow I feel like shit. It feels like I failed at life. it was my fault and the worse thing is that I know it. I’m just trying not to think about it, things like that don’t faze me as much as they use to. My room feels so dead and un alive.
... Its killing me….